The Gospel

All of that build-up, all of the waiting... for what? For this.

The movie was okay. The singing was good enough but the direction of the director was not clear. The acting was okay -- Idris sounds like he has a juicy mouth. I think he has a British accent in real life-- Boris was trying but he couldn't cry to save his mama's life (lol) --Tamyra and Donny are new so they get a pass. The dad (Clifton?) was good and I also liked Ms. Ernestine. Nona did okay but she definitely came off like a weird lady in the movie. I wouldn't be surprised if we found out she killed her whole family later on (the character not the actress... lol).

So, after all of that build-up, I rate the movie a 3 on a 1-5 scale. Hey, they are black so that gets them 2 automatically and then the music pushed it up to one.

That's my movie rating and I'm sticking to it.

George Bush

What I'm thinking about these days...

I have a friend who hates everything about W. I can't even mention him in her presence without her going off on the poor man. Here poor man is not quite an accurate description but you get what I'm saying.

Well, I'm in no way a Bush supporter but my feelings for him are not that strong. I really think that I look at him more like a specimen to be examined closely so that we can learn from him. With that being said I have to say that I admire him in a way. George Bush is the ultimate example of success in the US. yes, he had a little more help from daddy's money than most of us will ever experience but look at it like this...

He is not the sharpest knife in the drawer but he somehow (yeah, it was based on a flawed count but whateva) obtained the best job in the whole world, president of the United States of America.

So what can I learn from this man?

I learned that he can bring a whole country into a situation (war) without any care for what the world thinks just because his daddy told him to. Dang... for real y'all, he could care less about what the world thinks of him.

Oh yeah, before Bush how many of y'all knew that a supreme court justice could come in and go right to the top... chief justice? I didn't know that and now I do. That's cold, huh?

That man is slick and I kind of like it when a man walks with a swagger. Then after I heard about Roberts I found out he wasn't the first so I guess it wasn't a precedent but I sure know it was cool as hell.

Lastly, not for real lastly but just for this post, who knew that a chief justice didn't have to be a judge? I didn't. Now I do and it's all because W said forget y'all I'm going to do it my way and put my people in place so that my mark will be huge in this world. And then again I find out that Miers wouldn't be the first. Even Rehnquist wasn't a judge.

Dang, W is the bomb because he is cocky as all get out and I love it.

I bet he's kinky, too.

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Poetic Dribble

Dear reader, I know that of late I've been writing some really weird stuff but that's just what's in my head right now. I swear I'm not some morose, gloomy, sullen woman whose only joy is creating depressing, sappy, stinky poems. I'm really a fun, light-hearted spirit... for real, I am.

J

What do I need?
Who is required in my life?
Is there one love that surpasses all loves
And demands my affection
My attention
In return
Or am I here to share with whomever I can?
I felt that I loved you
I was in love with you
Deeply, truly
I needed you in my life
This was a definite physical wanting
That could not be denied
Or so it seemed
So I conceded
And gave you all of me
The way I thought it was supposed to be
We were a right thing
Not committed to the right way
As a result we failed
Daily
Then the pain turned to anger
And the hurt to deceit
I'm loosing again
Alone in pain
Now here I stand
Tears streaming down
My heart crushed
Yet again
Because I refused to follow the plan
So I'm hurting right now
Lost and confused
Please Jesus
Please Jesus
Ease my pain
Please Jesus please
Ease my pain
Only You can
But the pain keeps visions of You
Far away
I can't see Your glory
From the valley I'm in
But I know
Beyond a shadow of a doubt
That you reign supreme
All over the land
So I will stand and no longer be moved
Trusting You is what I will do
Whenever
Wherever
You are now my truth
Praising you
Brings me the peace I need
I want to praise your wonderful name
For the rest of my days

Somebody said trouble don't last always...

Why is my flesh so powerful, so all encompassing? When will I fight the good fight and win? I deal with a lot of the same issues over and over again and it seems that I always end up on the short end of the stick. Is victory certain, real?

I search for answers
But still find myself in the dark
Blinded from my own doings
Can't hardly see the light that I know is there
Trying desperately to be aware of the snare
That I've heard of in the Book
But can't stand to look up for the answers
So in darkness I'm stranded
Confused
More like dumbfounded
So much so that I can't look around for it
So in shit creek I'm stuck
And that damn paddle is no where to be found

Okay, enough complaining…

I bought the new Cece, The Gospel soundtrack and Kirk (when I'm over-thinking things I tend to spend money I don't have. I don't necessarily like the contemporary Cece cds so I'm not feeling it yet but I know I will because I always do. The soundtrack is good enough, I'm loving the songs by Kirk, Fred and Hezekiah - typical gospel fan that I am. Kirk is the bomb. This one is not at the top... yet but, again, I'm sure I will fall in love with it in a day or two.
My movie plans for the weekend are in jeopardy but I’m going to fix it so that I can see The Gospel on Friday, somehow... someway.

Oh yeah, after all is said and done know this.... I KNOW I got the victory! ;-)

Choosy Beggars..

Okay, I am in the throes of another bout with my obsessive behavior. I have been reading and watching everything I can find on the movie The Gospel. It all started with the Yolanda Adams song, Victory, and it's been downhill ever since. I'm caught up and won't be through with it until I see the movie.

I went to Wal-Mart hoping to find the soundtrack so that I could at least curb my appetite but no luck there. It was no where to be found. I did get the new YA CD so I'm kind of all right but I can already tell it won't last long. I can just tell.

Anyway, I was watching the gospel concert after the movie premiere on BET and I heard this song that started me on this tangent that I'm about to share with you, unfortunately.

The song said that if you just trust in Him (God) that He will give you everything you need everything you ever wanted.

Okay, here's where I go too far so you can stop reading if you want...

Of course she was referring to Psalms 37:4 where it reads ‘Delight yourself also in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.’

The thing is that I think, and have been taught by my teacher (so it's not just me flying off the handle) and accepted that this passage is speaking to believers that are in fellowship with the Holy Spirit. If you are in fellowship then the desires of your heart are the things that God has for you. So, you will receive and desire only what God wants you to have. Therefore, when we share this message with people it is important that they understand what it is really speaking to.

For example, right now I want to get married and have four rowdy little boys so that I can smile at my husband as our boys bring terror to the land (just jokes on that last part but for some strange reason I do like rambunctious little boys). Anyway, if I can get myself together and delight myself in the Lord and stay in fellowship with Him (let God lead my thinking) then whatever He has planned for me (missionary work, community service leader, mayor, single woman, head of the usher board, married with kids even) will be exactly what I want to do and therefore He has given me the desires of my heart, a heart in His likeness... His desire. See?

A lot of people get confused with this passasge because they think 'hey I go to church on Sundays AND go to bible study during the week AND do right outside of church AND pay my tithes AND all kinds of other stuff and I am still single or poor or whatever. Well, you're 'that' because it is God's will (or you're not ready yet or you said no to the man/job He has for you). Whatever it is, it's not time yet so just accept it. Anyway, if it's a chore to do all of those things then you are clearly not delighting yourself in Him.

I know I go too far sometimes so I'll stop, for right now.

peace y'all