December 3

My birthday is my second favorite day of the year. Christmas just gets the number 1 spot but, for real, my birthday is a close 2. I love it because it's all about me and I get to feel just a little bit more special. Sick, huh? lol I know, but I'm a self-centered, self-absorbed young lady and I can't help it if I think it's all about me. lol

For real, that's not me but I do love my celebration day. All I ask on this day is that you bring no BS my way. I try my best to stay up-beat and happy the whole day and usually it works out that way. That's birthday present enough for me.

Anyway, today is my birthday and as I relect on the year past and the year to come I hope to learn something new and exciting enough this year that will make next year's reflection just as beautiful as this year's has been.

Goals: Learn to play that damn guitar, take a Leisure Learning course in photography and one in something else, run two 5ks and be prepared for the half marathon, buy more hats (I so want to be the 'cool' hat lady) and finish writing my book. I think I can, I think I can...

Oh yeah, find and marry my husband... lolol

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My birthday celebration can be so many things
A dream
A fantasy
A smile from a dear friend
I smile for even me
I can experience an experience
That increases my sensitivity
And then celebrate my maturity
I can laugh from dusk to dawn
Or start early in the morning
And continue to give thanks
The whole day long
I can dance the night away
Or speak softy of His grace
I might work in spite of the day
Or take off for my special day
Whatever I decide
And however it works out
My birthday is a special day to me
And I’ll celebrate it merrily

Blocked

I have about 15 stories that I've started writing. 10 out of the 15 are just barely a paragraph and really more of a thought. I'm not tripping on those. 3 others are truly the beginning of something more involved than a thought but again not much of a story let alone a book. I have a lot of hope for those three.

Lastly, the two. Two of these stories are full out possibilities that I've actually taken the time to develop and outline even. I've invested a lot of time and effort and yet I'm stalled on both of them. I am in a hellacious limbo.

Aaaaaaargh!!

I hate this place. Here I am trying to do something, make a dream a reality so that I can have something tangible to show to the kids when I talk to them about chasing a dream and I can't get through this. So discouraging and depressing.

I find myself creating mantras and adopting self-help mechanisms and yet I'm still here.
Anybody out there with a word, any kind of word, to help a sister get from point a to at least j or k?