My Forever-Mine!!!

My struggles continue. For years I’ve been complaining bout not having a forever-mine. Still… all these years later, guess what? STILL no forever-mine. What the hell is up with that? Am I just doomed to be alone for the rest of my life?

I had a long talk with a friend of mine today and she was trying to help me get my mind back together again. My questions always start off with ‘why me?” lol but then I move to a huge ‘woe is me’ moment. It’s pathetic really.

She usually just sits and bears my emotional break-down but never without giving me some words of wisdom to hold on to.

Here is my thing though. Even when you try to do everything right… I’m talking about not abusing alcohol or drugs, obeying your parents, going to school, being nice, not sleeping around blah, blah, blah… and you still find yourself in this predicament then what do you do?

My confidant was all about getting to the root of the problem. Her theory is this…

We make idols of the things we value. Most times people think that an idol has to be a figurine or statuette but in reality an idol is more closely defined as a priority in your thinking… like the provider / supplier of your peace and/or satisfaction. Her theory is that my idol is the husband that I think will make me happy. What I should do is find happiness from the source of happiness, God, who will in turn provide the feeling that we’re searching for.

So, then my question was… is it a feeling I’m searching for or a husband. Her answer was that it is the feeling that the husband is supposed to bring. Ummm, maybe but I want the husband for his love and companionship and sperm… yes, I WANT KIDS!

She laughed then told me that it was the feeling of love that I was really looking and that since God was love then it could only come from/ though Him.

Wow, my friend is so smart!