I Must Repent

I am in that place where sense is in short supply and confusion reigns supreme. That place disturbs me in so many ways. I am disturbed because I cannot move and thinking is at a minimal. Unfortunately, emotionalism is running rampant.

I hate this place.

As I pray for peace I catch myself pleading for a miracle. Please God, just take this burden away.
As I pray I am still plagued and very easily become angry because the burden has not been lifted (that's that emotionalism in charge again!). I pray more and still no answer.

If You'll never put more on me than I can bear then please, please reveal to me your strength that only if I accept, I’ll know.

Please God, ease my mental hang-ups and let me accept your teaching. Please God let me know and accept that I cannot pray for an escape but for peace as I take this test.

I know these things but I cannot find the joy through the test. My flesh only focuses on the pain and disappointment. I will not pass this test until I understand how to take it. I am caught up in my idea of perfection. I need to accept Your perfect will. Please God, help this lowly one who struggles with her flesh, this lowly one who rejects your perfection.

I pray for a repentant mind, a changed heart, the heart (mind) of God.

I pray for these things and your perfect will in my life, in Jesus' name, by the power of the Holy Spirit